God made me Kinky

God Made me Kinky.

That’s how I know God is ok with BDSM and kink. Because if God made me this way then it surely can not be bad in God’s eyes. BDSM is not a sin if explored safely and not recklessly.

Having explained this to many people I realise I’ve not actually written it down so I thought I would so I can just forward people to it rather than type it all out again.

It’s a similar story to those told by LGBTI+ people. They are certain their sexuality is a gift from God, and God does not mistakes, therefore being LGBTI+ is not a mistake. The same goes for kink.

Many people now describe kink as their dominant sexuality, as in it is part of who they are and that they cannot be sexually fulfilled without it. (That doesn’t go for everyone of course.) If that is the case, with sexuality being an integral part of being human, kink is an integral part of who we are. Therefore God made us kinky.

I discovered kink was integral to me a few years ago when I went through a big purge of all my kink and dressing clothes. I was going off to study theology and ministry and thought I needed to get rid of this side of me because God wouldn’t like it. So I binned all of Natalie’s clothes and toys, including some of my favourites that I’ve never been able to replace. I went away feeling clean and fresh.

About two terms in and I’d not dressed or played or anything and was feeling ok until I came home for the holiday. Something inside me snapped and I had a breakdown and didn’t know who I was anymore or why I was so unhappy. It then dawned on me that I hadn’t dressed for over 6months and that I was missing it. I bought myself some new clothes and dressed and felt kinky and the negativity fell from me like a shroud. I felt complete again.

It was then I realised that this was an integral part of me that needed expressing. Bottling it up was killing me, letting it out was allowing me to be more fully myself. Jesus said he has come so that we might have life in abundance. God does not want us to live half lives or as shadows of our full selves. God wants us to be made full and be the people we were created to be, not hide ourselves away.

I realised then that it was God who made me kinky, who made me Natalie, who made me who I am. If I tried to remove any of that I would be removing a vital part of what makes me, me. If I removed a part of me I was removing something God had created, and that was a greater sin than being kinky could ever be.

To be my full self requires me to fully embrace all of what makes me, me and all that God has created me to be. Part of what makes me, me is my kinky sexuality. So I have learnt that I have to love and nurture that side of me to do honour to God. The God who made me kinky.

 

 

 

 

 

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About Natalie Waste

Bisexual, Lifestyle-Submissive CD. Theology student blogging about Kink, Christianity and Theology. kinktheology.wordpress.com
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